I Need A Man To Love

Whoa, I need a man to love me.

Don't you understand me, baby?
Why, I need a man to love.
I gotta find him, I gotta have him like the air I breathe.
One lovin' man to understand can't be too much to need. – Janis Joplin

It had been almost eight months since James had returned home and Sadie knew it could take more time for him to heal. Not just the flesh wounds, but the mental ones as well. Brigadier James Page was in a German POW camp for almost eighteen months. 

But he promised he would return and marry her and now while he was getting stronger she was planning a small wedding at the cottage. The sun was shining, flowers where blooming and a rose scent surrounded the cottage. Summer was almost here and she was hoping they would be married at the end of July.

He was getting stronger and stronger every day. His physical appearance, he seemed much older, with his wrinkles and grey hair. She didn’t care, she kept telling him how distinguished he looked and how she loved him no matter what.

One morning she surprised him with breakfast in bed. She told him of a fantasy that she had recently while watching him in the garden. She wanted him to be her gardener for a day. She would sit outside and watch him, then offer him something to drink, to cool him off.

She wanted him to then take her to the rose garden and make love to her. With the smell of the roses all around them, she felt so romantic all the time. “Oh, my sweet Sadie, of course I will make love to you in the garden. But I must say, there are bugs in the garden. Are you sure that’s what you want?” he asked, knowing she didn’t like certain bugs.

More than anything, she wanted him, so she was willing to deal with the bugs. He asked that she give him a day or two to prepare the garden, remove some rocks and weeds so when they did make love they would be comfortable. She agreed. This would also give her time to find the right dress to wear, make a nice meal for the two of them and catch up on her reading.

Several days later, he was just about ready and let her know she should wear something casual and sexy. She headed out to the shops and found a dress made of light cotton with buttons all down the front. It was pink with white polka dots. Any alterations she might want to do can be done at home. She also bought some sweets from the bakery. She knew they were his favourite and she loved surprising him as much as she loved pleasing him.

She arrived back home to find him sitting on the front porch. Horrible thoughts flashed in her mind; Joseph, her father, Piper, Harold, the war, bombs. He stood up to greet her. The worried look on her face told him she was scared.

He chuckled, “my sweet Sadie, why so melancholy?” he asked. “James, is something wrong? I have never seen you sit on the front porch and….” He took her in his arms and held her and kissed her. “My sweet Sadie, I was out here waiting for you to return. I have a surprise for you. Go upstairs and change into this beautiful dress you have in that bag and meet me in the kitchen. She looked up at his beautiful green eyes and smiled. Taking the box of pastries from her, he held the door open for her as they went inside.

Upstairs she changed into her new dress and checked her make-up, put on her favourite perfume, thinking they would be making love, she didn’t put on any panties. She went back downstairs to meet him in the kitchen. He poured them each a drink and handed her a glass. He raised he glass and said, “To us, may love never leave and may it follow wherever we go.” They clinked glasses, took a drink and then he grabbed her and kissed her firmly.

He took the glass from her hand, put both glasses on the counter and took her hand. Holding her close to him, he led her through the house to the back yard. While she was gone he started a pathway to the arbour. He explained that he would love to see her walk towards him, he told her to wait a moment and he would tell her when to come. Then he stood in front of the arbour and called to her. As she walked through the roses she saw him. And then she saw everyone else.

Her father, her brother with his girl Pamela, a new beau with Piper, Harold, their mother, a few nurses from the hospital and a few of James’s friends, all seated and watching her walk to James. He had planned this all weeks ago. Piper was going to arrive and take Sadie to lunch, but since Sadie went shopping by herself, Piper was able to help out in the garden.

Tears came to her eyes. This wonderful man never stopped surprising her. And surprises like this, now she knows why he had been working so hard in the garden. Her father stood to kiss her and continue walking her to James.

He knew their religious beliefs were different, so he arranged for someone from the local Register Office to preside over the wedding. It was all so beautiful and afterwards there was food and dancing. Piper’s mother had made the cake. She was a wonderful baker and a master at decorating cakes. Yet, she didn’t work at a bakery or sell her delicious treats.

“I do it for the joy. The joy it gives me when I see the joy it brings others. The smile on their faces, that’s why I do it, love,” Mrs. Stewart said, “and the more joy in this world, the better place it will be to live.”

Day slowly turned into night and it was so beautiful. The sky was clear, the moon was full and the stars were twinkling. As James held Sadie’s hand they walked around to everyone and spent time with each of their guests. Thanking them for coming, for their thoughts of happiness and their blessings.

There was music playing in the background, James had brought out the record player and put on Sadie’s favourite music, and the songs they first danced to the night they met. But, he also had a special record just for her, something he hoped she would like, Day by Day sung by Clydine Jackson, from which he softly sang in her ear while they danced,

“Day by day I'm falling more in love with you
And day by day my love seems to grow
There isn't any end to my devotion
It's deeper dear by far than any ocean”

The last person they sat with was Sadie’s father. He only ever wanted his children to be happy. For them to find love and to be loved in return. “Ah, pet, you have a wonderful man here. He is stronger than you know, and I know he will always make you happy. He not only promised you that in front of everyone here today, but he promised me too, that Christmas he came home to surprise you. I have no doubt in my mind he will follow through,” her father said, and kissed her.

James excused them for a while and taking Sadie by the hand, led her down to the river. There, another surprise awaited her. With help from Piper and Pamela there was a blanket spread out with the treats she bought for him earlier that day, a bottle of wine and a few cushions. They sat side by side, talking about the wonderful surprise, the beautiful day, the love of family and good friends and plans for the future.

“I have a question James,” she turned to look at him, “How? How did you manage to do all this without me knowing, without me helping?” He laughed a hearty laugh, like he did the first time they met, at the dance hall. He kissed her, lay her down and caressed her. “My sweet Sadie, Piper is a good friend. She did most of the planning. I gave her everything she needed. And those days when you and I went to London two weeks ago, that’s when I had some men come in and put up the arbour.”

“I knew when you saw it, saw me standing there, you would love it. It turned out beautiful, didn’t it?” and he kissed her again, his hand slowly moving up her thigh.

“Oh James, it is beautiful. The day was beautiful, and wedding, the garden, the food,” she chuckled, “the cake! Everything was beautiful. Everything is beautiful and you, my love, James, you are beautiful.” She giggled, “Yes, handsome or beautiful, but I meant as a person. Your soul, your love, your strength, your wisdom, your endurance, everything about you is just beautiful. I only wish one day I could be as beautiful as you.”

He kissed her passionately, for a long time and then whispered in her ear, “Thank you. You are the most beautiful person I know. And together, my sweet Sadie, we will make a beautiful life.” Slowly he trailed his hand back up her leg, slowly turning inwards between her thighs, and realized she wasn’t wearing any panties. He smiled and kissed her.

She spread her legs for his hand, and he felt her wetness. Still kissing, he inserted a finger deep inside her, pulling it out almost all the way and pushing it back in as far as he could. She undid his belt and trousers, trying to push them down so she could grab his stiff cock.

He removed his hand, and stood up to remove his pants, and then as he knelt down, he spread her legs. He slowly kissed her inner thighs, licked her juices and kissed her clit. There, he lingered and used his tongue firmly to lick and tease it.

Her breathing got heavier, she reached for his hair, she loved playing with his hair all the time, even while sitting on the sofa reading the paper or a book, and he liked the way she did it. He slowly pushed her dress further up her torso, kissing her as he did. He helped her remove her dress but left her bra on.

He adjusted the straps on her bra so that he could pull the cups under her breasts and allow her breasts to be exposed so he could suck and gently bite her nipples. Oh how he loved her big nipples.

She could feel his hard cock pressing against her but he didn’t enter. He kept kissing, biting, and teasing her, working his way up to her face. He kissed her firmly on the mouth. Her hands gripping his body tightly, her legs wrapped over his legs.

He kissed her neck and then up to her ear and whispered, “My sweet Sadie, believe me when I say this, but a woman can ejaculate, differently than a man of course, but she is still capable. I would like to help you achieve this, if you will trust me and allow yourself to feel the pleasure.”

He continued kissing her neck, back to her mouth and then down to her breasts. She couldn’t comprehend in her mind how a woman could ejaculate. She knew a lot about the human body, her father being a doctor, she read his books, helped him with his patients and more. But she had never heard or read about this.

But, she trusted James with all her heart and allowed him full control over her body. It was he that taught her Tantric sex and from there she read as much as she could find while he was away, so she could be ready when he returned. And yes, it was better than the first time. As he kissed his way down he inserted his middle finger deep inside her. She moaned with pleasure. He positioned himself for better access. “My sweet Sadie, we are far away from people, so if you need to get loud, don’t hold back. You might also feel the need to pee, but I will not stop and the feeling will pass.”

Little by little he inserted his first two fingers. She was already so wet, they just slid in, as he felt around for the g-spot he watched her face and knew she was enjoying the feeling. His fingers pressed lightly on the sacred spot, each time her breathing getting heavier.

With his other hand it gently teased her clit knowing how much more the pleasure would intensify. She raised one leg and placed her bare foot on his shoulder, her hands gripping the blankets tightly, pulling it closer to her, her head turning from side to side as the intensity rose within her.

“I do feel like I have to pee James.” He watched her as he increased the pressure inside and slowly sped up this circling on her clit. Her breathing became faster, louder, and he knew she was about to come. With a scream, she gushed a clear liquid all over his hand, but he didn’t let up right way, even though her body trembled.

He left his fingers inside her hot throbbing cunt and continued to play and tease her clit. After a few minutes he slowed down and let her catch her breath, still keeping his fingers inside her. “Oh, James, this is incredible, but I need to rest,” she said as he moved his fingers in and out of her, occasionally tasting her sweet juices. This is why he called her sweet Sadie. And she knew it. He knew now was the time to make love to her.

His hard cock throbbing to feel her from the inside, he removed his fingers and helped her to a sitting position. Then he laid back and pulled her so she straddled him. She kissed his mouth and his chest, caressing his nipples with her tongue.

He ached to have his big hard cock inside her, but, she knew that teasing him, the way he likes to tease her, would only make it more enjoyable. Life with James was enjoyable. Every part of life, the surprises, the love making, the pleasure in having dinner together, everything she did with James was enjoyable.

When he had returned from the war and they moved into the cottage together, despite what others said about living together before marriage, they didn’t care because they knew in their hearts they were married. They knew they were meant to be with each other.

Her father also felt she was safer here, away from London, and she would be the best person to nurse him back to good health. Part of her therapy for him included sex. She would please him any way she could.

Since he didn’t have the strength to hold himself up over her, she would mount him. She always whispered in his ear from the very first time she did this, “I’m on top now; therefore, I am in control. That’s how it works, whoever is on top is in charge of when, how, and the rhythm. Just like being in command, the higher up you go the more power you have.”

So now, here she was, on top and in control. He loved it when she took control. He taught her what he liked best, showed her how to satisfy him, and more importantly, allowed her to show her love for him.

Now, as she kissed his chest, she moved down slowly kissing as she went until she came to his cock. It stood straight up on its own, so she continued to go further. She kissed his balls, one at a time. Then opening her mouth slowly, she sucked one inside and teased it gently with her tongue. His moans were getting louder and he ran his long fingers through her long curly hair. She moved from one ball to the other, teasing him by using her finger to circle the tip of his cock. From the base, she ran her tongue all the way up his cock and took it in her mouth.

She sucked, licked and kissed his cock until he was about to come. But he didn’t, instead, he called, “My sweet Sadie, I don’t want to come in your mouth. I want to come inside that hot cunt of yours. Come here, my love” motioning to bring her face close to his.

She kissed her way up his torso to his neck, biting as she went, until her juicy cunt was resting on his cock. He reached down and guided himself inside her. Slowly, she began to rock back and forth, creating the friction needed to make him come.

Wanting to explode inside her, he held back for as long as he could. Their breathing heavier, louder, the excitement building until finally, he couldn’t hold back any longer and released all he had inside her. She remained on top, her head on his chest; she could hear his heart beating. Their breathing slowing, and became normal again.

He held her tight, wrapped in his arms, and whispered, “I love you more than you will ever know, my sweet, beautiful Sadie. You have made me the happiest man in a world at war.”

She sat up and looked him in the eyes and said, “What do we say in euchre? Always count on your partner for at least one trick,” she smiled, “loving you is my one and only trick. I love you James.”

They stayed by the river for a while and eventually got dressed and headed back to the house. As they walked hand in hand they could hear Benny Goodman and his orchestra and their song, Taking a Chanceon Love. They could also see that everyone was still there, still having a good time. It was as if James and Sadie had never left.

She remembered when James first brought her to this cottage. He had told her, “If I can’t show you any thanks, then let me offer pleasure.” Now she knew exactly what he meant. And she would allow him to offer her pleasure anytime, anywhere, forever.